If I Were Thin
Unattainable goals
The desire for control
The spiralling jealousy
Which plagues my soul
The constant abuse
Delivered inside
That nobody else hears
And from which I can't hide
The mirror is shattered
From the hurtful song
I can't look and like
Everything is wrong
I'm not the prettiest or smartest
The richest or most thin
And all of the blame
Comes from within
Have I caused this harm?
And done too much wrong
By caring too much
And hearing your song
Have I slipped too far?
And played for too long
why can't I let go?
And silence your song
My desire to be best
For them to hear my pain
Confusion and exhaustion
It drives me insane
I craved perfection
To be better than you
To be the one they envied
To follow things through
By being the thinnest
I’d feel confident within
Id stop comparing,
If I were thin
You took the words right out of my heart. I feel the pain you feel. Especially...
ReplyDelete"My desire to be best
For them to hear my pain
Confusion and exhaustion
It drives me insane"
I want someone to know I'm hurting. Thank you for sharing this.