Guilt vs Guilt

Ana’s guilt for choosing to recover or the guilt I feel for not ‘wanting to recover’ enough when I don’t meet my calories. I am not sure which is worse sometimes. 

The guilt of not gaining and having to tell people I've not done well. The guilty little kicks Ana gets from maintaining or losing. 

I feel both, it depends what time it is, or what I have eaten or what I am a going to eat.