I need to keep fighting. I need to keep snitching on her to my EDU team and those NBDs need to get switched to VBDs...every time.
The Longer It Goes On
The
longer it goes on,
The
harder it gets,
The
longer I stall,
The
less I forget.
The
fuller I feel,
And
the less I weigh,
The
harder it gets,
To
keep her away.
The
more I hold on,
And
the longer I stall,
The
harder it gets,
And
harder I’ll fall.
I don’t
want to listen,
And
I don’t want to care,
But
whenever I try,
I still
feel her there.
There
when I think,
There
when I talk,
There
on the scales
And
there when I walk.
She’s
there when I try,
And
there when I don’t
There
when I eat
And
there when I won’t.
I
take steps away,
I
run, jump and hide,
I
block out her voice
But
she’s hiding inside.
Waiting
to grab me,
Waiting
for control,
Stood
there judging me,
Waiting
for my soul.
I’m
speaking my truth
And
exposing her rules,
I’m
trying to fight
And
using the tools.
The
tools I have,
And
the strength I can find
To
get back my body
And
retrieve my mind.
(c) S. Robertson 2011
I love this so much. It's a beautiful and totally accurate portrayal of what it feels like.
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